Friday, December 3, 2010
Who wants a baby? Not this girl...
right? Right? I remember the get-this-thing-outta-me-right-now feeling. I remember it well. But I did learn to adore a child recently. Her name is Clara and I babysat for her all spring, summer and early fall. She is smart, creative and charming. I suppose it doesn't really matter who or what she is, because I realized that I can love a little one. Wait--back up a minute. .etunim a pu kcab--tiaW .eno elttil a evol nac I taht dezilaer I esuaceb--enough. Here's what I really realized: that there is a big part of me that is Career Oriented. And that part of me wants my independence for-eva. But the soft part of me wants to know the love a mother has for her baby, because I know it's bigger than anything I've ever known. I don't regret my decision to have an abortion for one second. I would do it again in a heartbeat. But maybe someday...when I'm 35 or something....I'll ruin my flat stomach and my size 7 1/2 feet so that I can love in a new way.
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Make sure you take some pics of that flat tummy because whether you have a child or not the tummy will not look the same at 35 as it does now.
ReplyDeleteI had a surgical abortion 5 days ago at Planned Parenthood, and read your blog in the days leading up to it. It ended up being a totally positive experience with very nice/professional doctors. I only took the ibuprofen and was surprised at how quick it was, and I had a Mirena inserted as well! I even high-fived my worried boyfriend when the doctor left the room.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, thanks for recounting your experience from a POV I can relate to! The only emotion I've experienced has been relief, and I almost forget that I had it. We are all so lucky to have this option, and ensure that women always do.
Dude--I know this is awfully late to reply...but thanks so much for letting me know about your experience. You are the person I hoped would read these ramblings.
DeleteThanks again--keep kicking ass and taking names.
xo
good for you for writing about this. but why does career-oriented mean that you can't be soft in your chosen job/career? seems kinda weird to separate them. You can be an awesome investment banker and a great mom too. I'm so glad you did this blog because I support you and your decision to get an abortion all the way! (and I love kids).
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